Whatcha say?

Hahahaa Okay I'm so high now. I didn't inhale alcohol at this freaking ungodly hour, but indulging myself with music (:
I wanna & Whatcha Say =D Okay these two songs are officially my favorite!

Went shopping yesterday with BLu. Ion, I spent like mad? =/ Topshop & POA. Tsk. But worth it (: I'm feeling good now haha! Like new & nice clothes, feeling dashing again =X Haa
Oh High-tea over at The Cathay (Some art studio) was awesome (: Cake was nice (:
Watched The Blue Mansion. LOL I seriously love Sebastien Tan hahahaa that broadway beng, he's cute (: I like the way he speaks hokkien. (: His spoken hokkien is unique, not really beng though. (: Yes yes yes, I fell asleep, for 20 minutes. LOL! =/
Here comes the best, NEWTON for supper! Baby Kailan, Squids, Cockles, Stingray, Tomyam soup & BLu. Wooooohoooooooo! Come to think of this, I just had them on Sunday? Haaaa But still it's enjoyable!

I'm freaking sleepy now, like right now!
Current song: Down.
Baby don't worry, you won't be alone, even the sky is falling down~
((: Too high eh.
-
Carrie Zelynn Ng
P/s: Oh meeting Jolene & Joanna later... I wonder if I still have enough energy. =(

Day Seven

Bye Bye
Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

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I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Separation brings
You never let me know it

I wish we could never say BYE.
-
Carrie Zelynn Ng

Attica @ Wavehouse (08Nov09)

Here you go, Attica @ Wavehouse. Awesome evening with Vodka, Champange, Heinkein, food and company (:
We drank, ate, party, surf and some were drunk or half gone. And I'm high HAHA! =/ Well, thanks for encouraging me to go. A day off everything, it's a good one. (:
Everyone was AWESOME!
Flowerider is love (:

Guess I can't remember a shyt from 8pm to 9pm, was too high. =X
After that Taufan, Gang, Shah, Clara and I went to Newton for supper. AHHHHH! SUPER DUPER! (:
LOVE LOVE LOVE!
-
Carrie Zelynn Ng
P/s: RIP Jason. Hope you are together with God. (: I will smile, whole-heartedly for you and for myself. (: I love you. Day 7

Having to bare the pain of you leaving me forever.

It isn't easy, I wasn't that strong to start things with. You were always there for me. For the past 10 plus years. I could not remember, not even once, that you are not by my side when I'm down or happy. We grew up together. Having you to leave me suddenly just left me hanging, hanging in the mid-air. I felt useless, I don't even dare to face the wake. I don't even dare to do anything. Pretending to be strong like nothing's wrong, nothing's going to affect me. This was so wrong. Tears just roll down, countless time since the time I received the news. I didn't tell my parents, didn't tell my cousin, didn't tell my other friends, cos' I do not know how to tell them? What will I get from them? "Don't be sad", "It's okay". That doesn't help. Will you even come back after those were said to me? No.
The only thing that I remembered you telling me was to mug hard. I did, and I'm doing that. Mugging hard. Not wanting to disappoint you.

Leaving this reality for a day, I realised this is a difficult time for me. But then again, every other minute there will be someone having a more difficult life than mine. I should move on, having to know that you are with God. I'm at ease. And no matter which part of heaven you are at now, there's a place where I can always see you. My heart. BFF, this is for you. <3

-
Carrie Zelynn Ng
P/s: losing someone you care a lot is painful. Tears just won't stop rolling down.